my choice, my destiny, my existence...

my birthday cake

2011-04-20T13:17:00.000-07:00

Kaci Battaglia feat. Ludacris - Body Shots

2011-03-27T21:22:00.000-07:00

Move on By Bruno Mars

2011-03-15T18:24:00.000-07:00

Katy Perry - E.T. ft. Kanye West

2011-02-06T13:07:00.000-08:00

Telephone - Glee Version featuring Charice and Lea Michelle

2010-09-28T23:00:00.000-07:00

Pyramid - Charice ft. Iyaz

2010-07-25T18:02:00.000-07:00

my newest addiction

2010-04-05T19:10:00.000-07:00

ronexistence - my choice, my destiny, my existence

Happy New Year!!!

2010-01-01T01:48:00.000-08:00

Another fresh new year is here...
Another year to live!
To banish worry, doubt, and fear,
To love and laugh and give!

This bright new year is given me
To live each day with zest...
To daily grow and try to be
My highest and my best!

I have the opportunity
Once more to right some wrongs,

To pray for peace, to plant a tree,
And sing more joyful songs!”

-William Arthur Ward

ronexistence - my choice, my destiny, my existence

Season's Greetings

2009-12-09T22:04:00.000-08:00

i won't ask much for this season..

i have no christmas list

just contented..

but i have gifts for my goddaughters and sons

ronexistence - my choice, my destiny, my existence

my new pet dog named Kobe

2009-11-15T21:56:00.000-08:00

this dog was given by my neighbor..

ronexistence - my choice, my destiny, my existence

i'm back!!!

2009-11-15T21:28:00.001-08:00

i'm back in the bloggosphere..

for the past few months i've been busy with my work

work work work as asual...

hmm... so here i am!!

eating crackers..

ronexistence - my choice, my destiny, my existence

Time to refresh your Alpabetong pilipino

2009-08-02T15:39:00.000-07:00

BASAHIN MO.. sa tagalog

ronexistence - my choice, my destiny, my existence

Song for the moment : Stigmatized by The Calling

2009-07-21T00:43:00.000-07:00

The Calling widget by 6L & Daxii

If I give up on you I give up on me
If we fight what's true, will we ever be
Even God himself and the faith I knew
Shouldn't hold me back, shouldn't keep me from you

[Chorus:]
Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as i am
And live our lives, stigmatized

I can feel the blood rushing though my veins
When i hear your voice, driving me insane
Hour after hour day after day
Every lonely night that i sit and pray

[Chorus]

We live our lives on different sides,
But we keep together you and I
Just live our lives, stigmatized

We'll live our lives, We'll take the punches everyday
We'll live our lives I know we're gonna find our way

I believe in you
Even if no one understands
I believe in you, and i don't really give a damn
If we're stigmatized
We live our lives on different sides
But we keep together you and I
We live our lives on different sides

We gotta live our lives
Gotta live our lives
Were gonna live our lives
We're gonna live our lives, Gonna live our lives,
Stigmatized

Song for the moment : Man in the mirror

2009-06-26T18:38:00.000-07:00

in memory of Michael Jackson
Aug 1958 - June 2009

I'm gonna make a change,
for once im my life
It's gonna feel real good,
gonna make a diference
Gonna make it right...

As I, turn up the collar on
my favorite winter coat
This wind is blowing my mind
I see the kids in the streets,
with not enought to eat
Who am I to be blind?
Pretending not to see their needs

A summer disregard,a broken bottle top
And a one man soul
They follow each other on the wind ya' know
'Cause they got nowhere to go
That's why I want you to know

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
(If you wanna make the world a better place)
Take a look at yourself, and then make a change
(Take a look at yourself, and then make a change)
(Na na na, na na na, na na, na nah)

I've been a victim of a selfish kind of love
It's time that I realize
That there are some with no home, not a nickel to loan
Could it be really me, pretending that they're not alone?

A willow deeply scarred, somebody's broken heart
And a washed-out dream
(Washed-out dream)
They follow the pattern of the wind ya' see
'Cause they got no place to be
That's why I'm starting with me
(Starting with me!)

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Ooh!)
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
(If you wanna make the world a better place)
Take a look at yourself, and then make a change
(Take a look at yourself, and then make a change)

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Change his ways - ooh!)
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make that..
(Take a look at yourself and then make that..)
CHANGE!

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
(Man in the mirror - Oh yeah!)
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Better change!)
No message could have been any clearer
(If you wanna make the world a better place)

(Take a look at yourself and then make the change)
(You gotta get it right, while you got the time)
('Cause when you close your heart)
You can't close your... your mind!
(Then you close your... mind!)
That man, that man, that man, that man
With the man in the mirror
(Man in the mirror, oh yeah!)
That man, that man, that man,
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Better change!)
You know... that man
No message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
(If you wanna make the world a better place)
Take a look at yourself and then make the change
(Take a look at yourself and then make the change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na na na, na na na, na na, na nah
(Ooooh...)
Oh no, no no...

I'm gonna make a change
It's gonna feel real good!
Come on!
(Change...)
Just lift yourself
You know
You've got to stop it,
Yourself!
(Yeah! - Make that change!)
I've got to make that change, today!
Hoo!
(Man in the mirror)
You got to
You got to not let yourself...
brother
Hoo!
(Yeah! - Make that change!)
You know - I've got to get
that man, that man...
(Man in the mirror)
You've got to
You've got to move! Come on!
Come on!
You got to...
Stand up! Stand up! Stand up!
(Yeah! - Make that change)
Stand up and lift yourself, now!
(Man in the mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah! - Make that change!)
Gonna make that change...
come on!
You know it!
You know it!
You know it!
You know it...
(Change...)
Make that change.

my brief moments 2

2009-06-17T21:26:00.000-07:00

again.. i wonder how do i look when i take a picture of myself. I'm not very athletic, nor i don't go to gym. I had a lot of fantasy in my head, i used to think this pictures is my way of making fun of the way to break free. Through this, i flaunt and thus redefining every expectations. I felt like i'm a model for the day. I'm ferociously curious about my ordinary looks in a picture. I just want to unleash.

ronexistence - my choice, my destiny, my existence

my brief moments

2009-06-10T21:57:00.000-07:00

just want to post my pictures.. its like a record of my young life..
and soon when i grow older and older.. i will remember this..

more of this in my friendster and multiply account..

ronexistence - my choice, my destiny, my existence

Endorsement

2009-06-04T19:16:00.000-07:00

i endorsed his blog..

Vote the blog of landz.. unicohija.blogspot.com

just click this URL:

Song for the moment : Fall for you Lyrics

2009-05-27T19:04:00.000-07:00

by Secondhand Serenade

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Ohh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

my 10 favorites

2009-05-23T21:39:00.000-07:00

Favorite Food

1. Hamburger of McDo, Jollibee, Burger King

2. Pizza of Italianni's

Greenwich

3. Lasagna of Greenwich

4. Spaghetti of McDo, Jollibee, SBARRO

5. Palabok of Jollibee

6. French Fries of McDo, Jollibee

7. Fried Chicken of Jollibee

8. Macaroni&Cheese of my own recipe.. hehe the best!!

9. Banana Q

10.Pancit Canton

Favorite Mall

1. Power Plant Mall in Rockwell, Makati

2. Glorietta in Makati

3. SM Mall of Asia in Roxas Blvd. in Manila

4. Trinoma in Q.C

5. Greenbelt in Makati

6. Alabang Town Center in Alabang Muntinlupa

7. Robinson's Place Ermita in Manila

8. Robinson's Galleria in Ortigas

9. Shangrila Mall in Shaw Blvd. in Mandaluyong

10. SM Megamall in Ortigas

As time goes by...

2009-05-05T03:01:00.001-07:00

As time goes by..

Beauty simply travels to the heart..

Appeals turns to charm..

Past hurts to wisdom..

And great moments to lifelong memories..

You have to decide whats's more important to you:

Keeping your pride and getting nothing

or

takin risk and maybe, having everything.....

Incoming Birthday Quotes Part2

2009-04-19T12:02:00.000-07:00

Last week the candle factory burned down. Everyone just stood around and sang, 'Happy Birthday'

We know we're getting old when the only thing we want for our birthday
is not to be reminded of it.

Age is a question of mind over matter. If you don't mind, age don't matter.
- Satchel Paige

They say that age is all in your mind. The trick is keeping it from creeping down into your body.

You are only young once, but you can stay immature indefinitely. Another year older... another year closer to being Mr. Potato Head.

Birthdays are good for you. Statistics show that the people who have the most live the longest. -Larry Lorenzoni

Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had, and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

Incoming Birthday Quotes

2009-04-18T20:11:00.000-07:00

Birthday Wishes

May your spirit keep the freedom
of a butterfly in spring
and your heart be filled always
with the joys of simple things.
May your essence claim the freshness
of the new laid morning dew.
All of this... and more...
is my Birthday wish for you.

Bangkok Love Story

2009-04-10T20:04:00.000-07:00

Synopsis:

An explosive love story of two men who live seemingly parallel lives without any real chances of meeting. Until one day, a twist of fate brings their paths to a crossroads of an unimaginable yet unforgettable love affair. “Maek” (Rattanabanlang Tosawad), a man of few words, has loved no one and never thought of loving anyone except his mother and his only brother “Mork” (Weeradit Srimalai). Maek lives a solitary life and constantly changes his name and address for the sake his safety due to his job. Uncertainty is what his job is all about and it allows him no love. How could it? He is an assassin. He is assigned a new mission: “Ith” (Chaiwat Tongsaeng), a handsome, wealthy man with an unanswered loneliness in his heart. Loneliness even though “Ith” has “Sine” (Chadcha Rujinanonth), his bride to be, nearby… Maek follows Ith’s every step to complete his assignment. Unfortunately, when the trigger moment arrives he cannot kill. There is something inside of him holding him back…. something too powerful…

Movie Review:

Going by the poster and the slick website, you can easily be fooled into thinking this was a movie well worth your time, a tale of forbidden love between two hunky males against a backdrop of crime and having circumstances going well against them. Movies with homosexual themes are nothing new here, although they still are a rarity. Most that made it here are of of critical acclaim, but somehow Bangkok Love Story fell through the quality control cracks and churned out something so bad, it was entertaining for all the wrong reasons.

The main love story here dealt with the feelings between Cloud the professional hitman (Rattanabanlang Tosawad), and his mark Stone (Chaiwat Tongsaeng), for reasons unknown to him. As a good soldier, he fulfills his scope of work to deliver Stone unharmed, only to find that his hirers ultimately want Stone dead. And if you're totally oblivious to the background of this movie, you might have thought that it was a film about brotherhood and camaraderie, in an action shoot-em-up that would make John Woo proud.

And here's where director Poj Aarnon (of Chai Lai Angels fame) floundered, in trying to craft a believable love story between the emotional Stone, and the stoic Cloud, who is wary of the former's advances, and tries hard to suppress mutual feelings. There were many moments and scenes injected into the two of them living together in refuge, which wouldn't even work in a usual heterosexual romantic tale, what with soft toys (I kid you not), stolen glances (which just went on), and the rubbing of backs which automatically led to something more, barring the reference you're trying to infer from this.

Having two hunks in the lead roles of Cloud and Stone (why do I have the feeling this was Storm Riders inspired?), it was clear cut exploitation of any tangible moment to have them bare their bodies, and prance around only in their undies, most of the time bordering on the ridiculous, although one can argue that in the Bangkok heat, it's probably the more sensible thing to do, especially when you're living on the roof of a skyscraper, undetected.

The only redeeming factor in this unintentional comedy, is the cinematography. Simply put, it is gorgeous to look at, with the varying angles and unbelievable palette of colours to evoke the moodiness and frustrations of the characters in missing, longing and denying someone. Which is a real pity for its technical strength to be wasted on a story which seemed to pour on every conceivable cliche you can possibly think of, with sub plots of discrimination by disease, revenge, love, hate, and heavy handed with its liberal dose of melodrama, throwing everything including the kitchen sink to bloat the story, and leave it plodding.

Too many side characters come interferring in the central arc without adding much purpose or value, with Cloud's HIV infected brother Fog (Weeradit Srimalai, ok, I hear laughter now) and mother dealing with his ambiguous sexual orientation, and Stone's fiance (Chadcha Rujinanonth) finding it strange that her man may be more than meets the eye, and the treatment of it may resemble that in Brokeback Mountain, but without the emotional punch and resonance. The final nail in the coffin is the last act which couldn't decide how and when to pull the plug, and dragged on so much that it led to things being even more uneven, with loopholes aplenty and every additional minute seemed to be like a year in Hell.

You don't feel anything for any of the characters, and that is what ultimately sinks this love story.

April 1 PC Virus

2009-04-01T21:46:00.000-07:00

By Elinor Mills CNET News
Posted on ZDNet News: Mar 30, 2009 5:49:43 AM

There's been lots of hype about the fact that the latest variant of the Conficker worm is set to start communicating with other computers on the Internet on April 1 - like an April Fool's Day time bomb with some mysterious payload.

But security researchers say the reality is probably going to be more like what happened when the clocks on the world's computers turned to January 1, 2000, after lots of dire predictions about the so-called millennium bug. That is, not much at all.

"It doesn't mean we're going to see some large cyber event on April 1," Dean Turner, director of the global intelligence network at Symantec Security Response, said on Wednesday.

It's likely that the people behind Conficker are interested in using the botnet, which is comprised of all the infected computers, to make money by distributing spam or other malware, experts speculate. To do so, they would need the computers and networks to stay in operation.

"Most of these criminals, even though they haven't done something with this botnet yet, are profit-driven," said Paul Ferguson, an advanced-threats researcher for Trend Micro. "They don't want to bring down the infrastructure. That would not allow them to continue carrying out their scams."

To help clear up some of the confusion about Conficker, here are answers to common questions people may have.

What is Conficker and how does it work?

Conficker is a worm, also known as Kido or Downadup, that cropped up in November. It exploits a vulnerability in Windows that Microsoft patched in October.

Conficker.B, detected in February, added the ability to spread through network shares and via removable storage devices, like USB drives, through the AutoRun function in Windows.

Conficker.C, which surfaced earlier this month, shuts down security services, blocks computers from connecting to security Web sites, and downloads a Trojan. It also reaches out to other infected computers via peer-to-peer networking and includes a list of 50,000 different domains, of which 500 will be contacted by the infected computer on April 1 to receive updated copies or other malware or instructions. Previous Conficker variants were written to connect to 250 domains a day.

Among the domains targeted by Conficker was that of Southwest Airlines, which was expected to see an increase in traffic from the botnet on March 13. But a Southwest spokesman said the worm had had no impact on the site.

Where did Conficker come from?

Some pieces of the Conficker code and methodologies it uses are similar to those used in previous botnet worms created by the underground operation known as the Russian Business Network and cohorts in the Ukraine, Ferguson said. But while there is speculation, researchers don't know for sure who is involved, he said.

"There is some evidence to indicate that this might at one point have been tied to distribution of misleading apps and rogue affiliate networks," said Symantec's Turner.

How is it different from other Internet worms?

Conficker has grown increasingly sophisticated with each iteration, with features designed to increase its longevity, most likely in response to researchers' attempts to block it. After researchers began preregistering domains targeted in the code, the Conficker.C authors upped the ante by having the algorithm generate 50,000 possible domains, instead of just 250, throwing a big roadblock into efforts to counter the worm. The creators also are using advanced encryption to obscure the instructions detailing which random 500 of the 50,000 domains will actually be contacted on April 1.

It appears the authors may also be intending to create domain collisions by targeting domains that are already in use by legitimate owners, Ferguson said.

"They're creating collateral damage, throwing a monkey wrench into our ability to counter them," he said. "What they're trying to do is make our lives miserable on any efforts to mitigate the threat."

Some of the tactics, including the domain randomization, inter-node communication, and use of strong encryption, are new, according to Ferguson.

"They are using tactics that are probably the most complex and sophisticated botnet tactics we've seen to date," he said. "This is very professionally architected design and development."

Added Turner: "This is the first widespread distribution of a worm since about 2004," when Sasser came out. That worm was believed to have infected as many as 500,000 computers.

What is being done to fight Conficker?

Microsoft has partnered with all the major security companies and domain registrars and registries to form the Conficker Coalition Working Group. The parties are collaborating on research, trying to put the pieces of the puzzle together and figure out who is behind the worm and how to stop it. They are using techniques like behavioral analysis of the code and reverse engineering, but researchers don't want to reveal too much information on their efforts. "We have made headway but I'm hesitant to talk about how far we've gotten," Turner said.

Researchers in the U.S. are preregistering domains that are targeted, but experts in Canada are going even further. The Canadian Internet Registration Authority is taking steps to block domains generated in Conficker code that fall in the .ca top-level domain from being used in the botnet, the nonprofit agency said. "If other domain registries were able to do the same thing it would go a long way toward helping mitigate some of the ability for the botnet to breathe," Ferguson said.

Conficker has proved to be such a nuisance that Microsoft has even offered a $250,000 reward for information leading to an arrest in the Conficker case.

What can I do?

Computer users should apply the Microsoft patch and update their antivirus and other security software.

Windows users should also apply a Microsoft update for the AutoRun feature in Windows that was released in February. The patch allows people to selectively disable the Autorun functionality for drives on a system or network to provide more security, to ensure that it is truly disabled. In addition to putting USB drive users at risk of Conficker and other viruses, the Autorun functionality has been blamed for infections from digital photo frames and other storage types.

Panda also has released a free "vaccine" tool for blocking viruses that spread through USB drives.

Microsoft has a Conficker removal tool. More botnet information and removal resources are on the Shadowserver Web site.

CBS 60 Minutes correspondent Lesley Stahl reports on computer viruses that propagate on the Internet and infect PCs, which enable their creators:

Mga Prinsipyo sa pag-ibig ni Bob Ong

2009-03-21T20:51:00.000-07:00

Brown book by Andres Cristobal Cruz, the rest from Bob Ong

Magbasa at matuto!

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya...?

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5.. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."--talaga? haha

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, FLIRT, malandi, Pa-FALL O PAASA."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima , sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totoong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. "Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala"????

17. "Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan"????

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"????

19. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.."

Semi Bald Head

2009-03-21T01:41:00.000-07:00

Just want to post my pictures..

I'm Alone

2009-03-20T19:04:00.000-07:00

Feel my cold embrace..
My heart is frozen..
My tears are forever frozen..

10 things i hate about me

2009-03-08T21:09:00.000-07:00

1. i'm a hopeless non-existent romantic person, i dont show how i feel in a person i know, especially when i'm in love.

2. i'm a pessimistic person " sometimes " i easily thinks life is full of rough edges.

3. more often than not, i'm not sentimental nor romantic

4. I dont cry easily, even if i feel sad and lonely.. Most likely i hide what i feel.

5. I easily annoyed by others, get destructed when i do something.

6. I'm a talkative person, needless to say as in...

7. Sometimes, I'm an ignoramus.

8. I'm a redundant type of person.

9. I dont know how to ride and drive a bicycle.

10. and soon.... I'm a loner type of person.., an introvert

Ang Aking Pagkabigo

2009-03-06T22:20:00.000-08:00

Hindi ko alam kung paano ako magsisimula.
Pakiramdam ko parang nawalan ako ng kaluluwa.
Gusto ko hanapin sarili ko at mag umpisa ng panibago.
Mag umpisa lang naman ito sa isang pagtatapat.
Masarap magmahal.. Mahirap kung yung mahal mo hindi ka mahal.
Sadyang may mga pagkakataon o pangyayaring hindi tugma at hindi pwede ipilit.
Marami rami na din naman pagsubok at pagkabigo ang dumating sa buhay ko..
Pero ito apektado ang isip at lalo ang damdamin ko.
Sa lahat ng minahal ko ito yung pinakahuli" sana ".
Naramdaman ko ito matagal na Nung meron pa akong " minamahal".
Lalong tumatagal lumalalim yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.
Hindi ko ito pinaalam sa kanya, pilit ko itinago.
May mga araw na iniisip ko siya, Minsan tuliro at tulala ako..
Hanggang isang araw,
Pinaalam ko na yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya
Hindi naman ito ang unang pagkakataon na nabasted ako.. Haays.... para akong nabalian
ng pakpak at dinurog ang aking puso. Para ayaw ko ng gumising sa pagkahimbing..
Sa bawat pag gising ko na akala ko panaginip lang pero ito ay isang masakit na pagkabigo.

Sa mundong ito walang permanente laging may pagbabago..

Isa na lang iniisip ko kailangan kong pagalingin ang nabali kong pakpak
at sa aking paglipad tanging sulyap na lang ako sa kanya..
Nakabantay sa bawat yugto ng buhay nya..

Ang Tanging Hangad ng Puso

2009-02-21T23:01:00.000-08:00

Ang pag ibig ko na hindi mailihim
Habang tumatagal lalong lumalalim

Kung nakakahiyang ibigin ka,
wala na akong pakialam.

Dahil ito ang aking nararamdaman
At gusto ko itong ipaalam

Pilit ko man iwaglit sa aking isipan
Hindi ko talaga mapigilan at maiwasan

Sa pagmamahal,
hindi mahalaga ang nakaraan
Kundi ang kasalukuyan

Hindi mahalaga ang itsura ng sarili
kundi ang pag uugali

Kung ang puso mo ay naliligaw
Gusto ko itong abutin at mapukaw

Ang tanging hinahangad ng puso ko
Ang pagmamahal mo ang ninanais ko..

Paghahanap

2009-02-11T19:09:00.000-08:00

Paningin ko'y bulag na sa tanawing karaniwan

Pandinig ko'y bingi na sa harurot ng sasakyan

Takot na ang puso ko sa pag ibig ay tumibok

Lugmok na yaring diwa upang makihamok...

True Love

2009-02-08T18:14:00.000-08:00

Throughout the longest of the twilight midnight hours
I lay wondering, weeping, dreaming of my desires
Wishing only that I could sleep devoutly in your arms
Knowing of your hardships as you trudge through muck an mires
I hope, I pray that you dote defending the memory of me
While I guard my thoughts and love of you tenaciously
You have escaped hence from the security of my embrace

I don't debate the work of hate, but I will not play along
My tears are shedding, river fierce, colored red, white, and blue
As long as I stand, I'll hold my flame high over head for you
I fight and die defending you, there is no truer love
To keep the spirit of freedom firm, our standards high above
On this day of Valentines, I send my sentiments to you
Those of the proud, of the brave, and of the precious few

Regardless of the issue, i'm always there for you..
To me, i keep you safe and secured,
So keep you safe, i'm your shining knight, who came at your distress
Guard your heart; i'll bring you home to my softest sweet caress

2009-01-27T00:03:00.000-08:00

New Year’s Reflections

2009-01-09T21:56:00.001-08:00

Looking back on the months gone by,
As a new year starts and an old one ends,
We contemplate what brought us joy,
And we think of our loved ones and our friends.

Recalling all the happy times,
Remembering how they enriched our lives
We reflect upon who really counts,
As the fresh and bright new year arrives.

And when I/we ponder those who do,
I/we immediately think of you.

Thanks for being one of the reasons I'll/We'll have a Happy New Year!

2008-12-31T00:20:00.000-08:00

2008-12-25T00:40:00.000-08:00

2008-12-14T17:56:00.000-08:00

Happy Holidays....

2008-12-13T19:06:00.000-08:00

Me and Santa Teddy

my collections

2008-12-12T16:20:00.000-08:00

my red teddy named nemo..

Rainbow pigs sans the color green and violet..

just want to put this pics in my blog.. this stuff was given by my sister.

Straight or Gay??

2008-12-06T02:19:00.004-08:00

Who would give a law to lovers? Love is unto itself a higher law.
-Boethius, The Consolation of Philosophy, A.D. 524

The Kiss

2008-11-24T00:38:00.000-08:00

The rain pours
the roadblock
below us,

The streetlight
from the lampposts
still dims,

The waiting shed
remains unperturbed
by no bystanders.

We talk, our conversations
craving , indulging
with the rain,

His face glowing
dark, almond eyes
sweet half moon of your lips.

Goatee warm like a nest
we embrace tightly
our pores breathing,

Into each other
a thousand and one
butterfly kisses..

On each other's lips
Thus, begin the story
of our life...

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Left Hand , Right Hand

2008-11-21T19:47:00.000-08:00

your left hand is the sensible one,

your right hand is the crazy one.

your left hand does what it should,

your right hand does what it pleases.

your left hand will support you,

your right hand will surprise you..

Harsh Words , Kind Words

2008-11-20T23:44:00.000-08:00

Harsh words are like sharp arrow thrown
In thin air, making receivers lonely.
Thus, dampering spirits, destroying paths
And leaving marks that punctured hearts..
( sigh )

Kind words are like many lovely song,
They spread sweet feelings, live all along
They brighten days for hearers all.
And bolster spirirts for each craving soul..
( smile )

Looking at Myself

2008-11-19T21:23:00.000-08:00

You should learn to accept the kind of person that you are. Through self-discovery you will be able to appreciate the person that you really are. Your self image is the key to your success or failure. Learn to know yourself and discover qualities you never knew you possessed. Develop your self-esteem.

Rainbow Principles

2008-11-12T04:09:00.000-08:00

When two souls meet

2008-11-02T01:10:00.001-07:00

I saw your countenance across the wire
Infatuation
Lust
Desire

I heard your stories and felt your grief
Empathy
Sympathy
Relief

I listen to your voice upon the line
Daunting
Mysterious
Fine

A connection made, time and distance cannot abate
Deep
Coincidence
Fate

And now I meet you face to face
Images burnt I can’t erase
Two souls dancing, side by side
Two hearts unwillingly open wide
Lead at first by flesh and lust
Now crumbles quietly, turns to dust
For the flesh cannot see as love it starts
Marching to the beat of our separate hearts.

Is this merely a coincidence?
Another victory for experience?
Stop it before it becomes too late
Unless, of course, it’s truly fate

But I’m sure it’s written in flesh and soul
On faith alone ? A risk I know
Step out, believe, with trust I greet
There is no mistaking,
When two souls meet

wenn zwei Seelen treffen

2008-11-01T13:09:00.000-07:00

Ich sah, wie Ihr Angesicht in der Draht -
Infatuation
Lust
Wunsch

Ich habe gehört, Ihre Geschichten und das Gefühl, dass dein Kummer
Empathie
Sympathie
Relief

Ich höre Ihre Stimme auf der Linie
Entmutigend
Mysterious
Bußgeld

Eine Verbindung aus, Zeit zu sparen und Entfernungen können nicht abklingen
Tief
Zufall
Schicksal

Und nun treffe ich Sie von Angesicht zu Angesicht
Bilder verbrannt Ich kann nicht löschen
Zwei Seelen Tanz, Seite an Seite
Zwei Herzen ungern offen breit
Führen auf den ersten von Fleisch und Lust
Jetzt krümelt leise, wendet sich an Staub
Für das Fleisch nicht sehen können wie die Liebe es beginnt
Marching der Beat unserer separaten Herzen.

Ist das nur ein Zufall?
Ein weiterer Sieg für Erfahrungen?
Stoppe ihn, bevor es zu spät ist
Es sei denn, es ist wirklich Schicksal

Aber ich bin mir sicher, dass es in Fleisch und Seele
Am Glauben allein? Ein Risiko, ich weiß,
Step out, glauben, mit Vertrauen Ich grüße
Es gibt keine Gefahr,
Wenn zwei Seelen treffen

auf die ein i liebe

2008-10-26T02:50:00.000-07:00

Ich liebe alles, was über Sie
Ich liebe Ihre Wertschätzung der Schönheit
Ich liebe Ihre jugendliche Ausblick auf das Leben
Ich liebe die Empfindlichkeit der dein Herz
Ich liebe die Magie Ihrer Präsenz
Ich liebe die vollständige Ehrlichkeit Ihrer Natur
Ich liebe die spirituelle Güte deiner Seele
Ich liebe die Süße Ihrer gesamten Existenz

To the one i Love

2008-10-02T00:32:00.000-07:00

I love everything about you
I love your appreciation of beauty
I love your youthful outlook on life
I love the sensitivity of your heart
I love the magic of your presence
I love the complete honesty of your nature
I love the spiritual goodness of your soul
I love the sweetness of your whole existence

La Mia Liberta*

2008-08-24T02:05:00.000-07:00

Io sono libero ora ... e io non sono più come morti come ho usato essere. Che ho usato per essere forte come un giovane uomo, ma quando ho raggiunto l'età, questa età dove sono io adesso, mi sento invisibile e divisibile. Per la vita è venuto a me una marea agitandosi, come un'onda che glided senza problemi, poi è diventato grande come casa mia, mi deglutizione, prendendo su di me, mi incarcerare e leccare le viscere del mio corpo, come un serpente che penetra il mio cervello, come aa maggot snipping la mia carne ... Io sono ora liberi da loro schiavitù ... Sono esenti da indesiderabili fattore di paura ... non lasciare che l'uomo mi dicono altrimenti, oh sto dicendo ora sono fuori di nessuno indietro ... Che nessuno sussurra qualche misterioso segreto nei miei orecchie ... non voglio ascoltare. Mi toglie l'ultima corda legata intorno al mio polso, mi sputare fuori parole che ho voluto sputare fuori, mi ridere in faccia nessuno, mi vanificare qualsiasi piano progettato per me che sono d'accordo con, mi portano nulla, e attendere fino al mio corpo si scarica ... voi mi chiedete da cui provengo? Io vengo dal suolo è a piedi, sparse in un eterno lifelessness. Poi è venuto e mi ha detto, ho visto il sole splenderà su di voi, oh bambino, ho visto il sole in flash su di lei, brillantezza accecante, troppo bello, di speranza, non posso avere su di voi, vorrei prendervi, ah , Date un'occhiata a voi, oh baby, date un'occhiata a voi ... e mi sentivo come una regina, mi è stata una regina situata a king-size materasso, il marrone dei miei alunni occhi battenti sul retro di una colomba, cantando hallelujiah! Si guardò il tuo volto attraverso di me, le ricerche si felicità che non avevo mai sentito attraverso i miei occhi, vi ho mostrato come godere, in ingrandita trasparenza, come fluido chiaro come la pioggia, di cui ho piena di. Ho spostato il tremore delle tue mani, è stato tickled dal quivering delle vostre labbra, sentì la stretta di tenere le mani, come ho raccolte di acqua dai venti, ha attirato la mia freddo, a sangue freddo. Ho girato il tuo respiro rilasciato dentro di me in una nuvola. Lottato con la mia forza di morsi i denti, e avvolto intorno freddezza la lingua. E dopo ho dato tutto a voi, lei ha chiesto di più. Non riuscivo a spegnere la vostra sete ... gridato e mi thrashed contro un muro duro, ho fatto irruzione in pezzi, e dove ho soggiornato è diminuito, sapendo un giorno verrà ri-formato in un altro vetro. Ora è il giorno.

*Italian translation of my freedom

My Freedom

2008-08-23T23:30:00.000-07:00

I am free now...and I'm no longer as dead as I used to be. I used to be as strong as a young man but when I reached age, this age where I am now, I feel invisible and divisible. For life came to me a surging tide, like a wave that glided smoothly, then it became as big as my house, swallowing me, taking over me, imprisoning me and licking the entrails of my body, like a snake penetrating my brains, like a a maggot snipping my flesh...I am now free from their bondage...I'm free from the undesirable factor of fear...let no man tell me otherwise, oh I'm telling you now I'm off anyone's back...Let no one whisper some mysterious secret into my ears...I won't listen. I will cut off the last rope tied around my wrists, I will spit out words I longed to spit out, I will laugh at anyone's face, I will thwart any plan designed for me which I disagree with, I will wear nothing, and wait till my body wears out...you ask me where I come from? I come from the soil you walk on, scattered into an eternal lifelessness. Then you came and said to me, I saw the sun shine on you, oh baby, I saw the sun flash on you, brilliance blinding, too beautiful, hopeful, I can't get over you, let me pick you up, ah, look at you, oh baby, look at you...and I felt like a queen, I was a queen lying on king-sized mattress, the brown pupils of my eyes flying on the back of a dove, singing hallelujiah! You watched your face through me, searched the happiness you'd never felt through my eyes, I showed you how to enjoy it, in magnified transparency, like fluid as clear as rain, of which I'm full of. I moved to the trembling of your hands, was tickled by the quivering of your lips, felt the tight hold of your hands, as I gathered water from the winds, attracted to my cold, cold blood. I turned your breath released inside me into a cloud. Fought with my strength the bites of your teeth, and wrapped coldness around your tongue. And after I gave it all to you, you asked for more. I couldn't quench your thirst...you screamed and thrashed me against a hard wall, I broke into pieces, and stayed where I fell, knowing one day I'll be re-formed into another glass. Now is the day.

Meine Freiheit *

2008-08-11T02:13:00.000-07:00

Ich bin jetzt an ... und ich bin nicht mehr so tot wie ich früher. Ich früher so stark sein wie ein junger Mann, aber wenn ich erreichte Alter, dieses Alter, wo ich jetzt bin, fühle ich mich unsichtbar und teilbar. Für das Leben kam mir eine brandende Flut, wie eine Welle, glitt reibungslos, doch dann wurde es so groß wie mein Haus, Schluckbeschwerden mich dabei über mich, mir die Inhaftierung und leckt die Eingeweide von meinem Körper, wie eine Schlange durchdringenden mein Gehirn, wie aa Made snipping mein Fleisch ... Ich bin jetzt frei von ihren Fesseln ... Ich bin frei von den unerwünschten Faktor der Angst ... Lasst uns kein Mensch sagen Sie mir sonst, Oh, ich bin Ihnen zu sagen, jetzt bin ich jemand's zurück ... Lassen Sie niemand flüstern einige mysteriöse Geheimnis in meinen Ohren ... Ich will nicht hören. Ich werde abgeschnitten die letzte Seil gebunden rund um meine Handgelenke, werde ich spuckte ich sehnte Worte zu spucken, ich werde auf jeden lachen's Gesicht, ich werde jeden Plan durchkreuzen, die für mich das kann ich nicht zustimmen, werde ich nichts tragen, und warten bis mein Körper trägt ... Sie mich fragen, wo ich her? Ich komme aus dem Boden du gehst auf, verstreut in eine ewige lifelessness. Dann kam und sagte zu mir, ich sah die Sonne über euch, oh Baby, ich sah die Sonne-Flash auf Sie, Brillanz Blendung, zu schön, hoffnungsvoll, ich kann nicht mehr als Sie, lassen Sie mich holen Sie, ah , Schauen Sie zu, oh baby, schauen Sie auf ... und ich fühlte sich wie eine Königin, ich war eine Königin liegen auf der King-sized Matratze, die braune Schüler meiner Augen Fliegen auf der Rückseite eine Taube, Gesang hallelujiah! Sie beobachtete das Gesicht durch mich, suchten das Glück Sie hatte nie das Gefühl, durch meine Augen, ich zeigte, wie man es genießen, in der vergrößerten Transparenz, wie Flüssigkeit so klar wie Regen, von denen ich bin voller. Ich zog nach dem Zittern der Hände, wurde von kitzelte das zitternde Ihrer Lippen, spürte die engen halten Ihre Hände, wie ich bereits gesammelt Wasser aus der Winde, zog zu meiner Erkältung, kaltblütig. Ich drehte mich Ihren Atem released in mir in eine Wolke. Kämpfte mit meiner Stärke der beißt Ihrer Zähne, und wickelte Kälte um Ihre Zunge. Und danach habe ich ihm alle zu Ihnen, Sie bat um mehr. Ich konnte nicht seinen Durst löschen ... Sie schrie mich geprügelt und gegen eine harte Wand, ich brach in Stücke, und blieb, wo ich fiel, zu wissen, ein Tag, an dem ich dann wieder in eine andere Form Glas. Jetzt ist es an den Tag

*German translation of my freedom

2008-08-03T04:55:00.000-07:00

Book Description

The author of over forty books, Michael Thomas Ford has been called "brilliant" by Publishers Weekly and has written award-winning and bestselling books such as Alec Baldwin Doesn't Love Me, That's Mr Faggot to You, It's Not Mean if It's True, and The Little Book of Neuroses. Now he turns his pen to fiction in this powerful and moving novel that depicts the lives of three gay men in Provincetown as they struggle to find love and meaning in their lives.

Synopsis

With its windswept dunes, lazy summer days and starry nights filled with possibilities, Provincetown holds special appeal for those who call it home...and for those who come seeking its open welcome. Josh Felling, a diehard romantic that has just discovered his lover has been having an affair, heads to the Cape to reflect on where his relationship - or what's left of it - is going. But the summer has other plans for Josh, and the people he meets and the effects they have on him will change him forever. People like Reilly Brennan, son of an old P-Town family, whose days are caught up in wedding plans, even as his nights are increasingly taken over by heated fantasies about other men...Wideeyed, blond-haired, All-American Toby Evans, an escapee from the Midwest ready to spend the summer in the equivalent of gay boot camp for anyone who will tutor him...Elegant Emmeline, age unknown, a southern belle straight out of Faulkner, with a mean drag act and almost enough money for her permanent gender transformation...And many more characters weaving in and out of each others lives, carrying Josh through a summer he will never forget.

2008-08-03T04:06:00.000-07:00

Book Description

A diverse group of men in a small New York town are struggling with dreams and desires. Mike Monaghan is the bartender at the Engine Room, a meeting place for the small but thriving community of gay man in Cold Falls. As Mike pours beer, wipes glasses and hears everything, he is witness to the men who come to Cold Falls looking for what they need - sex, direction, spiritual fulfilment and love.

Synopsis

The sweeping new novel from the Lambda award-winning author of "Last Summer". A local bar in a small New York town is the focal point for the lives of its gay community: a hub to which a diverse group of men gravitate to play out their dreams and desires...Mike Monaghan is the bartender at the Engine Room, a meeting place for the small but thriving community of gay men in Cold Falls, New York. As Mike pours beer, wipes glasses and hears everything, he is witness to the men who come through his doors looking for what they need: sex; direction; friendship; spiritual fulfilment; and love. People like: Stephen Darby - as an accountant, he knows many secrets. But Stephen has his own secret - one he has never been able to share with anyone close to him. Pete Thayer - playing it straight, Pete takes out his frustrations on transmissions and engines during the day and spends his nights trying to quench his needs through anonymous sex. John and Russell - the golden couple in town with the ideal relationship everyone wants. But behind the scenes their storybook marriage is on the verge of facing some explosive trials.
Father Thomas Dunn - more and more the gentle priest is feeling a need to express the secret desires that conflict with his devotion to the church. His faith in tailspin, he is beginning to question what he really wants from life. Simon Bird - a fixture in town, an old queen everyone finds amusing and entertaining. Still mourning the loss of his longtime lover, Simon yearns to find love and a place in a culture that worships youth and beauty.

my Anthology

2008-08-02T04:01:00.000-07:00

Boys Legion

2008-07-02T16:23:00.000-07:00

Mission:Boys Legion aims to create an ambiance of equality and acceptance despite diversity and individual differences among members. We forster camaraderie, strenghten our bonds, and act as one family. The legion is a locus for reaching a person's utmost potential and infusing in them the fundamentals for success. It is our duty to respect and protect the rights of men like us, serve the society to the extent of our capabilities, and be leaders for social change and innovations.

Vision: Boys Legion envisions a society of empowered citizens united as one; a community of individuals imbued with maturity, versatility, and integrity;a group of of critical thinkers and goal oriented leaders striving for service and excellence; men that stands with moral and ethical principles; and Legionnaires working harmoniously to promote an avenue for self-actualization.

"Boys Legion Creed"

We are Boys Legion
We believe in unity despite diversity and individual differences
We foster brotherhood, strengthen our bonds, and act as a family
We build the strongest foundation through better relations
We promote the virtue of maturity, respect, and acceptance
We mold citizenry imbued with courage and versatility
We fight for equal rights regardless of gender preferences
We have imperfections yet stand with ethical principles
We are like an army of angels...
... holding a sword with dignity to serve the society
... carrying a shield to defend the rights of men like us
... wearing wings to soar high and reach for our goals
... and possessing wisdom to judge critically and be leaders for innovations

my Guilty Pleasures ( Fragrance )

2008-06-27T00:20:00.000-07:00

DKNY Be delicious for men

A fragrance masculine to the core. The raw lushness of nature melded with the powerful sophistication of the big city with crisp, wet greens, modern woods, green apples and intoxicating coffee.

my Guilty Pleasures ( Fragrance )

2008-06-27T00:13:00.000-07:00

Bvlgari Aqva Pour Homme

Vibrant, pure, and masculine, this crisp blend of mandarin and petit grain, spiced with sexy mineral amber, evokes a brisk, aromatic freshness, with an elegant Mediterranean touch.

i like the smell..so manly..

my Guilty Pleasures ( ABSOLUT )

2008-06-13T19:25:00.000-07:00

i like this vodka

Man in the window

2008-06-01T12:15:00.000-07:00

Life is more vulnerable with windows.
Through which are seen so nakedly his various brusque force.
His partial arrangements of meals such as keep flesh and fable going.
The fabulous muscles quivering slighty, sensuous
bulging shoulder blades, musky arms and a alabaster skinned body.
And mirror that make clear his hard-boned spirit.
Shall not seen too often because too far..

2008-05-25T03:37:00.000-07:00

the chocolate that melts in your mouth not in your hands..

myself

2008-04-21T03:48:00.000-07:00

" Each of us is a fragment of a mirror; we don't just absorb, we reflect and share the light.."

" know that it's your decision, and not your conditions, that determine your destiny.."

" What we are TODAY comes from our thoughts of YESTERDAY and our present thoughts build our life of TOMORROW.."

my Birthday Vodka

2008-04-20T00:57:00.000-07:00

my Brief Moment

2008-04-15T01:09:00.000-07:00

I wonder how do i look when i take a picture of myself. I'm not very athletic, nor i dont go to gym very often. Unlike other male model who strutt their stuff, having a chiseled muscles and a six packed abs. I read fashion and fitness magazines and i had a lot fantasy in my head, I used to think, this picture is my way of making fun of the way to break free.I just want to unleash myself. Through this i flaunt and thus redefining every expectations. I felt like i'm a model for a day. I ferociously curious about my ordinary looks in a picture.

I wonder how do i look when i take a picture of myself. I'm not very athletic, nor i dont go to gym very often. Unlike other male model who strutt their stuff, having a chiseled muscles and a six packed abs. I read fashion and fitness magazines and i had a lot fantasy in my head, I used to think, this picture is my way of making fun of the way to break free.I just want to unleash myself. Through this i flaunt and thus redefining every expectations. I felt like i'm a model for a day. I ferociously curious about my ordinary looks in a picture.

my Anthology

2008-03-25T03:34:00.000-07:00

Life isn't a science; we make it up as we go along

Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be.

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on. ~Robert Frost

Life is a ticket to the greatest show on earth. ~Martin H. Fischer

What is life? It is the flash of a firefly in the night. It is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset. ~Crowfoot, 1890

"You can always die. It's living that takes real courage."

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."

don't have morals, have ethics. That way you can screw people, you just can't screw them over.

life is too short to break all the rules. Might as well get a running start and shatter them all at the speed of sound.

don't get so caught up in the dazzle and sparkle of the circus that you forget that they are all just freaks in stupid hats.

before you criticize someone, walk a mile in thier shoes, because then you are a mile away and you have thier shoes.

you catch more flies with honey than vinegar, but who wants to catch flies anyway?

Don’t worry about the future. Worrying is about as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real problems in your life are going to be the ones that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday

Save a soybean, Eat a vegan.

Never let them take you alive

Live fast, die faster

" Life is characterized by peaks and valleys, win and loses, victories and failures. You shouldn't let life's failures stop you from trying again.."

" An investment in life is an investment in change.. When you are changing all the time., you've got to continue to keep adjusting to change; which mens that you are going to be constantly facing new obstacles. That's the joy of living.."
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Friday, March 21, 2008
Poems about Life

Life Poem
A True Story of A Real Man
© By Nichole L. Johnson

A man that made an impression on strangers and friends.
Quiet but firm and even more stern.
Strength and courage I have learned from you, but being without you is hard to do.
A man with pride in every step he made.
A man with vigor in every phrase.

The tears I've shed cannot surpass the smiles and the laughs we had with you.
To feel your pain I could not do, to feel your joy I cannot explain, but being without is hard to do.
A man with pride in every step he made.
A man with vigor in every phrase.

A man that defined the word grand as only a real man can.
To know you're in a better place soothes my pain.
Knowing you're watching over me makes me sane.
A man with pride in every step he made.
A man with vigor in every phrase.

A true story of a real man, who in the end held his family together as only a real man can.
My grandfather, a man with poise.
You were a husband, father, uncle, cousin, grandfather, friend, and the epitome of a real man.

my Anthology

2008-03-21T18:21:00.000-07:00

Poems about Life

Life Poem
A True Story of A Real Man
© By Nichole L. Johnson

A man that made an impression on strangers and friends.
Quiet but firm and even more stern.
Strength and courage I have learned from you, but being without you is hard to do.
A man with pride in every step he made.
A man with vigor in every phrase.

The tears I've shed cannot surpass the smiles and the laughs we had with you.
To feel your pain I could not do, to feel your joy I cannot explain, but being without is hard to do.
A man with pride in every step he made.
A man with vigor in every phrase.

A man that defined the word grand as only a real man can.
To know you're in a better place soothes my pain.
Knowing you're watching over me makes me sane.
A man with pride in every step he made.
A man with vigor in every phrase.

A true story of a real man, who in the end held his family together as only a real man can.
My grandfather, a man with poise.
You were a husband, father, uncle, cousin, grandfather, friend, and the epitome of a real man.

my Anthology

2008-03-21T03:58:00.000-07:00

Poems about Life

Life Poem
A True Story of A Real Man
© By Nichole L. Johnson

A man that made an impression on strangers and friends.
Quiet but firm and even more stern.
Strength and courage I have learned from you, but being without you is hard to do.
A man with pride in every step he made.
A man with vigor in every phrase.

The tears I've shed cannot surpass the smiles and the laughs we had with you.
To feel your pain I could not do, to feel your joy I cannot explain, but being without is hard to do.
A man with pride in every step he made.
A man with vigor in every phrase.

A man that defined the word grand as only a real man can.
To know you're in a better place soothes my pain.
Knowing you're watching over me makes me sane.
A man with pride in every step he made.
A man with vigor in every phrase.

A true story of a real man, who in the end held his family together as only a real man can.
My grandfather, a man with poise.
You were a husband, father, uncle, cousin, grandfather, friend, and the epitome of a real man.

my Anthology

2008-03-02T16:04:00.000-08:00

Harsh Words, Kind Words

Harsh words are live sharp arrow thrown
In hin air, making receivers lonely..
Thus, dampering spirits, destroying paths
And leaving marks that punctured hearts.
( sigh )

Kind words are like many love song.
They spread sweet feelings, alive all along
They brighten days for hearers all.
And bolters spirits for each craving soul.
( smile )

Love Qoutes

2008-02-14T21:04:00.000-08:00

Love Qoutes

What can the love in my soul be compared to another wonderful soul which is so far and yet so close of my self?
What can this symbiosis between two souls can be?
What can love be when you feel you cannot sleep at night, that every drop of dew becomes a crystal in your heart, when every breeze of wind has magical meanings?
What can love be when you feel that you want nothing more in this world that to be with the soul you love?
But what can love be in other transcendental realities? What about our souls?
Are our souls a waterfall, a true Niagara or a smile, a flirt of an angel? Are our souls a mere mood of a fairy or a lightening in a summer rain?
Our souls could be all of this and much more. But what really happens in that transcendental reality when we feel we are truly in love, that we love so much that it hurts? That the air in the room is unbreathable, that the sentimental, spiritual or physical distances kill us? What happens when dawn find us sadder than ever, looking for an excuse or an argument for the person we love so much, our Great Love? What are all thses? What are the looks lost in the desert horizons of unfulfilment or those in the eyes that deeply loose each other in the others inside the souls?

Sorin Cerin
philosopher

2008-01-08T18:18:00.000-08:00

i like kakashi..i bought it last year..

2008-01-07T04:14:00.000-08:00

Hatake Kakashi, or "Copy Ninja Kakashi" is Sasuke's, Sakura's and Naruto's sensei. Usually discrete by nature about everything including himself, it seems that he wants to keep who he really is a secret to others and he always keeps his lower face hiddenby a mask. Kakashi also has a reputation of being a severe and demanding teacher, having returned all of his previous students before Naruto and his teammates to the academy. He said that all the others were brainless kids that didn't know what teamwork is and that they only obeyed to what they were told to do, teamwork seems to be very important to Kakashi. But, even though he seems to be cold sometimes, Kakashi loves his student and care for them enough to protect them at all costs, even his life, and he demonstrated that with Orochimaru and Zabuza.

Kakashi is quick thinking and seems to always be one step ahead of everyone and almost always knows how to act accordingly, even though he's always late to every appointment he has, important, or not! Moreover, Kakashi always has an ethically questionable book on him from the "Come Come Paradise" trilogy, and he even reads it in his first combat with his students which, of course insulted Naruto and got him into some "trouble"!

Like a lot of characters in Naruto, Kakashi's past is a tragic one, dirtied with the death of many friends and relatives. First, his father, Hatake Sakumo (AKA: White Fang), was disgraced after he abandoned a mission to save his friends, but because of that, Konoha suffered great losses and the village and his companions blamed the White Fang for that, thus, making him weak of mind and body because of the guilt he felt for his failure, and ultimately leading him to suicide. And for that reason, Kakashi became very strict about rules and regulations until 13 years ago...

It is known that Kakashi became a jounin 13 years ago (from where the manga currently is), at age 16. At the time he was training under Konoha's future fourth Hokage, Yellow Flash. He was in a three man team with Uchiha Obito, whom he never got along very well because Obito never obeyed rules and regulations, and Rin. At the time, there was great turmoil between the great countries and Konoha was deeply involved in what was to be called: The Third Secret World War. All four ninja were involved in a sabotage mission during the war and went to Rock Country. During the mission, the future fourth had to separate from Kakashi and the rest, so Kakashi was given charge of Obito and Rin.

Unfortunatly, Rin was captured by enemy ninjas and Obito went to rescue her without Kakashi who was still stuck up with his rules and regulations (he wanted to resume the mission without her). Obito had found Rin, but was about to be killed when Kakahi, who finally understood that teamwork and companionship was more important than rules, stepped in and injured the rock ninja. After some battle Kakashi injured his left eye and they were both about to be killed when he was helped by Obito who had his Sharingan awakened and killed the camouflaged enemy. The enemy's companion that was cornered used a Doton jutsu to make some rocks fall on Kakashi's team. Rin got out of the way but Kakashi was hit by a big rock on his blind side and fell to the ground, in an ultimate act of courage, Obito pushed Kakashi out of the way, therefore, saving him. Half crushed under the rocks, slowly dying, Obito's last gift to Kakashi was his Sharingan in his left eye, that was transplanted by Rin into Kakashi, making Kakashi what he is today, always being late and privileging teamwork to carry on Obito's legacy.

Afterwards Kakashi became an ANBU team member for a number of years, his only known mission was a rescue mission to save Snow Country's princess. But, judging from what we have seen in that part, we can deduce that Kakashi has been a normal jounin only for a few years.

Kakashi's fighting technique is complex and complete. First of all, Kakashi is quick thinking and has a developed sense of smell, thus making him very receptive to dangers surrounding him. He's also an excellent scout because of his great sense of smell and his ability to summon dogs. Kakashi, more than Sasuke, has learned how to use his Sharingan to the best of it's capacity. He knows the genjutsu that are related to the Sharingan and he can easily confuse powerful enemies like Zabuza with it. Moreover, Kakashi's favorite use of the Sharingan is it's copying ability. It is said that Kakashi has copied more than a thousand techniques with it, making Kakashi's arrays of techniques an exceptionally wide one.

Finally, Kakashi can even foresee the enemies moves with his left eye, making him even more shrewd. Aside from his Sharingan, Kakashi devised a formidable and powerful jutsu named Chidori/Raikiri. With this jutsu, Kakshi can virtually pierce everything from rock to flesh. Adding to this great array of ninjutsu, Kakashi is a formidable taijutsu user, and proves to be a strong enemy to even taijutsu users like Gai and can easily hold his own in close combat, like he does against Zabuza. The son of the once respected White Fang can wisely use genjutsu to his advantage in combat, and he can use a lot of them, making him a dangerous adversary even when the enemy is in hiding or keeping a distance.

All about naruto

2008-01-06T16:12:00.000-08:00

All About Naruto - Did You Know?
Did you know that the name of Uzumaki Naruto comes from a city in the Tokushima Prefecture of Japan named Naruto? The city of Naruto was founded on March 15th, 1947 and has a population of 64,257 and a density of 474.40 per km². Naruto is most famous for the Naruto Whirlpools (Uzumaki, hence Uzumaki Naruto), a famous tourist attraction. Naruto also is home to the Ryozenji and Gokurakuji temples, the first two temples of the 88 temples on the Shikoku Pilgrimage that are believed to have been visited by the famous Buddhist monk Kukai, who was born in Zentsuji of the Shikoku Prefecture in 774. The pilgrimage is 745 miles long (1200 kilometers) and traditionally walked, which can take up to 60 days to do completely. Those who do complete the entire pilgrimage are known as o-henro-san and are often recognizable by their white clothing, sedge hats, and walking sticks. Also in Naruto is the Ohnaruto Bridge, a suspension bridge on the route that connects Kobe with Naruto. Completed in 1985 the bridge crosses the Naruto Strait (location of the Naruto Whirlpools) and has a span of 876 meters (2,874 feet), good for being named the 25th largest bridge in the world.

source: www.narutofan.com

Nature : Love it while its lasts

2007-07-02T00:33:00.000-07:00

My favorite "description" of love is from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin:

2007-03-30T04:45:00.000-07:00

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
- Captain Corelli's Mandolin. "Love is the beauty of the soul."

--St. Augustine

my Anthology

2007-03-30T04:10:00.000-07:00

My favorite "description" of love is from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin:

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
- Captain Corelli's Mandolin. "Love is the beauty of the soul."

--St. Augustine